Airplanes

the airplanes fly overhead all night
I wish I was on one, on any flight
this is not the way that I imagined my life
so take me far away from it tonight

I can't afford a ticket anyway
and I'm afraid of crashing so I end up praying
even though I don't believe in anything
except this dream of getting far away

get up, shower, brush your teeth
find some clothes, walk to the subway
ride to manhattan, go to work,
do your job, then catch the subway home
try to relax and sleep, try to relax and sleep
and listen enviously to the airplanes that you'll never ride on
flying over Brooklyn all night, endlessly
goodnight

Rein Me In

I'm all passion and no sense
leave the gate open while mending the fence
won't take the bit at my own expense
who's gonna rein me in

I think too much so I hold my tongue
You already caught me, that's when I start to run
Broke the bridle when I was young
who's gonna rein me in

I hold myself so still
While I detonate inside
In the aftershock I'm surprised you don't see
The flames flowering in my eyes

But I smile brightly while I'm bleeding
My mind is stern, but my eyes are pleading
without a bridle, without a bit
who's gonna rein me in

Panic

something's wrong with me, i don't want, i don't want to think
but i can't stop, i can't stop circling these well-worn thoughts
i should be asleep right now, right now but i can't, i can't rest
i dread tonight, i dread tomorrow, and all the rest

what's happening to me?
i can't find any peace
and the noise, the noise, the noise is deafening
what's happening to me?
there is no relief
and the noise, the noise, the noise is cycling
on repeat

something's wrong with me, i go white, i go white sometimes
without warning, i have to leave, i have to leave the room
i can't breathe, i can't, and i'm shaking and shaking
oh you stole my joy, my song, my dream, my everything

what's happening to me?
i can't find any peace
and the noise, the noise, the noise is deafening
what's happening to me?
there is no relief
and the noise, the noise, the noise is cycling
on repeat

they say don't talk about it
don't talk about it
don't talk about it
just keep quiet

what's happening to me?
i can't find any peace
and the noise, the noise, the noise is deafening
what's happening to me?
there is no relief
and the noise, the noise, the noise is cycling

Small Town Girls

When things got bad I'd sneak away with a book
Or scribble poems laced with blood and tears
No one thought to ask if something was wrong
While I withdrew to the prison of my fears

Small town girls learn how to tell big lies
When the neighbors know all the details of your lives
And gloss over the heartache in your eyes
Yeah, small town girls have to learn to tell big lies

I'd read all night until the sun scorched my face
And stumble dazed into the hallway
Playing out the colored Classics in my head
While sleepwalking through another shabby day

Small town girls learn how to tell big lies
When the neighbors know all the details of your lives
And gloss over the heartache in your eyes
Yeah, small town girls have to learn to tell big lies

I thought someone was coming to rescue me
A savior or a hero or destiny
I waited patiently, expectantly
And I learned to save myself eventually

Small town girls learn how to tell big lies
When the neighbors know all the details of your lives
And gloss over the heartache in your eyes
Yeah, small town girls have to learn to tell big lies