brown eyes

every time i see your brown eyes, brown eyes
i get lost
every time i see your brown eyes, brown eyes
i count the cost

i think you're worth a little pain
just don't bring the rain
don't bring the rain

every time i see your brown eyes, brown eyes
makes me smile
every time i see your brown eyes, brown eyes
i wanna say 'just stay here awhile'

i think you're worth a little pain
just don't bring the rain
don't bring the rain

every time i see your brown eyes, brown eyes
i get blue
every time i see your brown eyes, brown eyes
i fall in love with you

i think you're worth a little pain
just don't bring the rain
don't bring the rain

communion (you wanna shut my mouth)

let me partake of the daydreams that will eventually break my heart
blood on my tongue, body undone, now it's my turn to come apart

you don't know me, this bundle of flesh and bone stretched across the floor
you don't owe me this debt of cruelty as you turn me out the door

i see, i see, i see
everything you thought you hid from me

i feel fingers slide over my mouth and tighten their grip on my arm
love is a weapon, i'm not a victim but i feel like i'm falling apart

you don't know me, this bundle of flesh and bone stretched across the floor
you don't owe me this debt of cruelty as you turn me out the door

i see, i see, i see
everything you thought you hid from me

you wanna shut my mouth, you wanna shut my mouth, you wanna shut my mouth
i know you do
i know you do

but you don't know me, this bundle of flesh and bone stretched across the floor
you don't owe me this debt of cruelty as you turn me out the door

shrug like a devil

so go laugh behind my back
and sleep with all my friends
what good are they to me anyway
when they'd trade my trust for your bed

i can smile like an angel, shrug like a devil
and leave you to find your own heaven or hell

but don't think that i don't know, don't think i'll let you come in the door
or climb in my window, it's 4 am and i am just fine on my own
and you are the one who's scared to be alone
who's scared to be alone

so go ahead, drown me out
with another predictable joke
i wouldn't waste my breath anyway
cuz i'm saving it up for a smoke

i can smile like an angel, shrug like a devil
and leave you to find your own heaven or hell

but don't think that i don't know, don't think i'll let you come in the door
or climb in my window, it's 4 am and i am just fine on my own
and you are the one who's scared to be alone
who's scared to be alone

orlando (cells & divisions)

off off off with pearls & ribbons
down down down to the skin
discarded wigs & powders
unguarded by fans or feathers

society's been sitting my judge & jury
but i don't need no help to make my own decisions
it's my heart confined within these cells & their divisions
and i am beautiful without
i am beautiful without the sentence of my peers passed down
there's no deliberation here

burn burn burn the labels & names
turn turn turn every page the same
trample on the tools of etiquette & status
sample the forbidden feast of habit & fetish

society's been sitting my judge & jury
but i don't need no help to make my own decisions
it's my heart confined within these cells & their divisions
and i am beautiful without
i am beautiful without the sentence of my peers passed down
there's no deliberation here

sinister height

catch me, hook line & sinker
pluck me from friendly water
dangle me in enemy air
reel me into a net of despair

i will fight fight fight until i die
i will bite your hand, blind your eye
bruise your flesh, break your will
throw me back while you still have a chance

bait me with a tainted lure
tease me until i can't be sure
if up is down, if left is right, alright
raise me from my depths to your sinister height

i will fight fight fight until i die
i will bite your hand, blind your eye
bruise your flesh, break your will
throw me back while you still have a chance

Cake

fuss & fidgets, lucky digits

sixty-nine, you'll be mine

can't resist me, tongue-twist me

goodness gracious, i'm voracious

gonna have my cake & eat it too

and when i've had enough of you

lick my dish & clean the spoon

lick my dish & clean the spoon

grumble & groan, mumble & moan

they're just jealous, i'm so rebellious

sugar-frosted, leave you exhausted

brain-less, bra-less, just plain obnoxious

gonna have my cake & eat it too

and when i've had enough of you

lick my dish & clean the spoon

lick my dish & clean the spoon

revolving door

what i could tell you
the things i've been through
since i last spoke with you

what i could show you
the girl you never knew
a truth that isn't true

revolving door, take me for a ride
i can't get out the way i got inside
revolving door, take me for a spin
i can't get out the way that i got in

what does free look like anyway?
yesterday is still today.

what i could give you
a place of refuge
to take your cares to

i could still love you
with bone and marrow
with flesh and sinew

revolving door, take me for a ride
i can't get out the way i got inside
revolving door, take me for a spin
i can't get out the way that i got in

what does free look like anyway?
yesterday is still today.

worst case

what could
what could not
what should have been
regret
i'm not finished yet
what would have been

you're my last case, my first case, the worst case
the face i put on the blues

what will
what will not
what should not be
regret
i'm still in your debt
what would not be

you're my last case, my first case, the worst case
the face i put on the blues

i cannot have you
you're my worst case
the face i put on the blues

more or less

you love me because i make you see how beautiful you could be
you hate me because i make you see how you fail

it's easy to tell a pretty lie when honesty will not satisfy
but i can't candy-coat the things i feel

i am not afraid of any poison, of any blade
i can take the weight of this mess we're in- it's not too late
just don't turn away. i could not love you more or less than i do today.

you love me because i make you feel the distance between false and real
you hate me because i make you feel ashamed

it's easy to tell a pretty lie when honesty will not satisfy
but i can't candy-coat the things i feel

i am not afraid of any poison, of any blade
i can take the weight of this mess we're in- it's not too late
just don't turn away. i could not love you more or less than i do today.

crown of thorns

baby, i feel a bit like Jesus
hung up, senseless
strung up, useless
sick enough to admit i'd do it again
not a question of how, just a matter of when

i'll weave your thorns into a crown
i'll pull you down over my brow
you say, 'this pain's getting to be an old story.'
i say, 'baby, so are we,
but the rose that grows from our sunless soil never smelled so sweet.'

baby, i feel a bit like Judas
greedy, remorseless
betrayal in my kiss
slaying my pride to stay at your side
wolf in sheep's clothing, crucified

i'll weave your thorns into a crown
i'll pull you down over my brow
you say, 'this pain's getting to be an old story.'
i say, 'baby, so are we,
but the rose that grows from our sunless soil never smelled so sweet.'

to give out, to give up, to give in
i am willing
to give-
my kingdom for a crown

girl/accessory

turn my poetry into prose
deny me 3x before the cock crows
hunched shoulders, pull up my hood
damn me, eternally misunderstood

i won't look you in the eye
while you recreate me
however you want me to be
the perfect accessory
the perfect lie

turn my water into stone
or send me running like a bitch after a bone
clenched hands, bite my tongue
damn me, i'm always through but i'm never done

i won't look you in the eye
while you recreate me
however you want me to be
the perfect accessory
the perfect lie

Color Blind

can't see your blue, blue veins
raging with red, red blood
laced with white, white cocaine

can't see your green, green eyes
dilate with black, black thoughts
frantic for white, white highs

i was stupid to listen to anything you had to say
i couldn't see you were using me cuz i was born this way
color-blind

can't see your blue, blue eyes
racing with red, red blood
filling with white, white disdain

can't see your green, green eyes
loaded with black, black hate
desperate for white, white highs

i was stupid to listen to anything you had to say
i couldn't see you were using me cuz i was born this way
color-blind

seduction

you wanna know where i go when my eyes look like the sea
i'm caught in the ebb and flow where you cannot follow me

i used to be seduced by the lie- someone will understand
but the men only want your body
and the women just want your man

why should I turn the page when i can predict the end?
it's filling me with rage so why should I pretend?

i used to be seduced by the lie- someone will understand
but the men only want your body
and the women just want your man

he'll turn to me and say 'baby, it ain't what you think.'
i'll turn my head away and drown my heart in a drink

i used to be seduced by the lie- someone will understand
but the men only want your body
and the women just want your man

saving face

i rarely say what i mean
whisper the words in an empty room
with no one listening
scribble it down on a clean white page
but i'm not so pristine
i don't know what i am doing

i can't tell you what i think
without losing the words in a laugh and a drink
i can't tell you who i am
in the absence of the page and the pen
i can't tell you how i feel
like none of this matters and none of it is real

i break everything i touch
concentrate and my hands start to shake
i've been drinking too much
gives me the courage to lie to your face
so i can save mine
a humble offering to pride

i can't tell you what i think
without losing the words in a laugh and a drink
i can't tell you who i am
in the absence of the page and the pen
i can't tell you how i feel
like none of this matters and none of it is real

feather

sun doesn’t feel warm anymore
everything takes on a sinister hue
still i launch myself into the blue
used to shuffle but now i soar

i was in the air
i was in the air
i was in the air
and i didn’t need you there

go while you still have the chance
tuck a feather behind your ear
a trinket, a token, a souvenir
last glance and i start to dance

i was in the air
i was in the air
i was in the air
and i didn’t need you there

too many lovers in my bed

this morning i thought "oh my god, i'm taking the same steps,
the same breaths as yesterday."
wanted to crawl back in bed, tell the world to go to hell
but i kept walking anyway

this is not what i thought my life would be
a war between chaos and destiny
does chance sleep with fate? does fate lie with me?
too many lovers in my bed

so i run around- gain & lose the same ground with the same chance,
the same choice and no sign of change
distractions, transactions bought with the blood of my dreams
i'm told i don't want for anything

this is not what i thought my life would be
a war between chaos and destiny
does chance sleep with fate? does fate lie with me?
too many lovers in my bed

i have this dream where i stand still and
scream
in the street
for no reason.
does anything ever happen?

this is not what i thought my life would be
a war between chaos and destiny
does chance sleep with fate? does fate lie with me?
too many lovers in my bed

one night stand

the moon saw me home last night at 5 am
so close, i could almost see her surface bend
and she's a lot like me, a sliver of light everyone can see
shadow hinting at memory she cannot mend

one night stand, she sets and rises again
one night stand, drowning in the hourglass sand
turn it over, turn it over, turn it over
i want to start over

i walked several blocks out of my way
to stand under the flickering streetlamps
and he's got a lot of nerve, but maybe no more than i deserve
and i am happy walking home at 5am

one night stand, she sets and rises again
one night stand, drowning in the hourglass sand
turn it over, turn it over, turn it over, turn it over, turn it over, turn it over, turn it over
i want to start over

bar philosophy

let's just say what we mean
i'm sick of being polite
you're kinda young, you're sorta dumb
yeah, you're exactly my type

let's cut to the chase
you're only good for one thing
you're a fool, you're a tool
but i wouldn't mind a fling

if you can handle this
unspeakable bliss

now i've had my say
don't go wasting my time
cuz you're the drunk i plan to bunk with
so take me home-
before i change my mind

monterey

sunrise in monterey
sea lion dive and swim away
i'll remember how you look
hide your picture in the pages of my book

when i cry you cry too
and this is how i recognized you
this is how i knew

want to fall into the sea
and drown your troubles there with me?
now we can't go but we can't stay
to see the sunset in moterey

when i cry you cry too
and this is how i recognized you
this is how i knew

this is how i knew