10.28.2003

Hundred-Watt

I can see the way the light falls on your bare shoulders, golden skin
Unaware how much I'm still under your spell, your sour sunspill, still

It's beautiful here in hell
I wouldn't leave for the cool water, the unspoiled shore
I like it here where I can keep my eye on you
It's beautiful here in hell
I wouldn't leave your honeyed breath, I've tasted death
and I like it here where I can keep my eye on you

I can see the way the light falls on your upturned face, your careless grace
blisters my hands, can't stand to let you go. Hundred-watt, white-hot

It's beautiful here in hell
I wouldn't leave for the cool water, the unspoiled shore
I like it here where I can keep my eye on you
It's beautiful here in hell
I wouldn't leave your honeyed breath, I've tasted death
and I like it here where I can keep my eye on you

poisonous but pretty

learn to disappear within the blank stare of the city
pale petals of skin, they are poisonous but pretty

i only end up thinking of the nectar i could be drinking of

the devil's apples taste sweeter than heaven
i keep forgetting i'm not in the garden
we're far from eden, but i'm not through eating

no one ever has to know
no one ever has to know
no one ever has to know
no one ever has to know

the pursuit of pleasure bends a body low then lifts it high
pluck the bitter blossom, wipe the telltale bluebell from my eye

i only end up thinking of the nectar i should be drinking of

the devil's apples taste sweeter than heaven
i keep forgetting i'm not in the garden
we're far from eden, but i'm not through eating

no one ever has to know
no one ever has to know
no one ever has to know
no one ever has to know

only now do i understand the damnation of temptation
only now i end up thinking of the nectar i could be drinking of

no one ever has to know
no one ever has to know
no one ever has to know
no one ever has to know

Frostbite

I'm the saddest girl on the train
My sweet apple flesh bruises easy
Chemicals shiver through me
Doctor can you give me something for the pain?

I hold on so tight to a thing no one understands
My knuckles go white, the prints are on my hands
and I'm not here to fight, I've got to let it go
let it go

I'm the saddest girl on the train
My peach blossom skin is spoiled with frost
One breath, one bite and I am lost
Doctor can you give me something for the pain?

I hold on so tight to a thing no one understands
My knuckles go white, the prints are on my hands
and I'm not here to fight, I've got to let it go
let it go

A little casual chemical
A little chemical parable

I hold on so tight to a thing no one understands
My knuckles go white, the prints are on my hands
and I'm not here to fight, I've got to let it go
let it go

raven wing

you leave me balanced on the knife edge between storm cloud and solace
i will dance in a whirlwind and scour the memory with rain water and dust

spinning, spinning
i will weave trouble into a raven wing
even icarus will envy the kiss
my coal-hued feathers furnish the sky with love

you shake my faith in me, the tremors ripple into earthquakes and monsoons
i will dance in the canyons and leap over the precipice, over thorn bushes and roses

spinning, spinning
i will weave trouble into a raven wing
even icarus will envy the kiss
my coal-hued feathers furnish the sky with love

Worried About Me

My face is saying keep your distance
unless I tell you different
and I never tell you different

Risk disease for blood and smoke
risk my heart but I'd sooner choke
sooner than later I'm bound to choke

Am I the only one who's worried about me?
Who's worried about me?

My body says I'm afraid to love
nothing's ever good enough
nothing or settling, is it good enough?

Am I the only one who's worried about me?
Who's worried about me?

Wasted days
the leaves of my youth are drifting away
I open my hands and read the lines
Who can decipher these wonders and signs?
You are mine, you are mine


Am I the only one who's worried about me?
Who's worried about me?

Film Screen Dream

Mornings I wake with wet lashes
Film screen dream flickers and flashes
You were alive, you were there, I swear

Dancing on the walls, on the white sheets
Shadow falls, echo beats
and I'm not sure when the line begins to smudge and blur, what is real?

I didn't lose you instantly
Celluloid skin slips by degrees
Shutter clicks, flesh fades to black, come back

Dancing on the walls, on the white sheets
Shadow falls, echo beats
and I'm not sure when the line begins to smudge and blur, what is real?

Honey

There's nothing left to say, so why do I talk this way
to your back under my breath, silence is a form of death

So as long as I'm alive, I'll steal the honey from the hive
Lick my fingers, kiss the stinger, swollen lips for the tale-bringer

Oh sugar, that's not your name, you're still my sugar just the same
Melt in my mouth, on my tongue. I am the fool who loves getting stung

There are so many other roses to pollinate with your pretty poses
My little boy, you're a busy bee, just save a bit of the honey for me

There's nothing left to say, so why do I talk this way
to your back under my breath, silence is a form of death

So as long as I'm alive, I'll steal the honey from the hive
Lick my fingers, kiss the stinger, swollen lips for the tale-bringer

Is

Got a back-up plan for every set of circumstances
Somehow I did not factor you in
I can take a chance and face the consequences
Throw the fight, you might lose or win

Gonna love you. It's a hopeless cause but I'm not worried
Gonna love you. It's a hopeless cause but I'm not worried
about what this is and is not going to be
about you

I'm in love with love, it's something of a guilty pleasure
A habit I can't seem to kick
Break myself to pieces on some granite shoulder
Take your turn, just take your pick

Gonna love you. It's a hopeless cause but I'm not worried
Gonna love you. It's a hopeless cause but I'm not worried

about what this is and is not going to be
about you

Is Not

Don't look at me that way, like you've got something you need to say
cuz you and I both know exactly where this is and is not going to go

I'm not gonna fall in love
I'm not gonna fall in love

I'm forever lonely even with someone sitting next to me
but you are not the cure, just a distraction till I find something more

I'm not gonna fall in love
I'm not gonna fall in love this time
I'm not gonna fall in love

Hey kid

Hey kid, I miss you so much
You came to me in a dream last night
Sat me down, put your arm around me
My head on your shoulder, it just seemed so right

You know, I think you're the only man I'll ever truly love

Hey kid, come play your piano
I'll bring along the bread and the booze
Sneak in the chapel, you can play me a communion
I'll lay and listen content in the pews

You know, I think you're the only man I'll ever truly love

Nudge, Shove, Wink

can give until he bleed me dry
haven't gotten angry in a long time
there, no mother bear to lick her wounded cub
better be a mercenary when it come to love

you got a way with your beauty, your body
every guy want a piece of the cherry pie
he/ecstasy be an obscene lie
might prick a little bit, just look it in the eye

ain't never let go, ain't never scream
ain't never let go, ain't never scream
it make no matter what you think
nudge, nudge, shove, wink, wink

baby laugh, jump back at the whip crack
leash lead everywhere, anywhere but the sack
lust pay if you stroke it the right way
didn't make the rule, how the fool play

you got a way with your beauty, your body
every guy want a piece of the cherry pie
he/ecstasy be an obscene lie
might prick a little bit, just look it in the eye

ain't never let go, ain't never scream
ain't never let go, ain't never scream
it make no matter what you think
nudge, nudge, shove, wink, wink

courage, the urge to desecrate?
courage, the urge to deviate?
courage, the urge to penetrate?

ain't never let go, ain't never scream
ain't never let go, ain't never scream
it make no matter what you think
nudge, nudge, shove, wink, wink

Damselfly

it's a drowsy day, glint of green leaf lilacs sway
droning bees, nectar drunk on the peach fuzz breeze

I'm a breath on your neck, a line on your palm, a card in your deck, a verse to your psalm

it's an eden night, a poisoned passion fruit delight
damselflies hunt with envy-green iridescent eyes

I'm a breath on your neck, a line on your palm, a card in your deck, a verse to your psalm
don't say it doesn't matter

Where's the Father

Mary, you look so happy with that baby on your lap
An eternally gracious smile, but tell me where's the father at?
Where's the father at?
Where's the father?

I see a man with a tilted head
His eyes are blue, his lips are red
and in his hands he holds a lamb, but tell me, where's the father at?
Where's the father at?
Where's the father?

The door stands open to let the sun in
I could crawl inside, stand at the back
Send my anguished prayers to heaven, but where's the father at?
Where's the father at?
Where's the father?

I looked in the sewer, looked in the gutter
Found your son and kissed his mother
Fruitless searches, chapels and churches, but where's the father at?
Where's the father at?
Where's the father?

Universe of Need (kaddish)

I froze as the words were read in remembrance of the dead
He knew how to rub two words together inside his head
So I came to warm my hands over his borrowed flame
I think he knows his was the last soul to glow over the coals

I'm frightened of death, the rasping eternity of a last breath
I'm skin and bone, frantic to scratch my name on a stone
no love, no seed, no god, no creed- only a universe of need

I climb the rubbage heap of steel, glass, and concrete
I can hardly guard my heart, who's got time to watch her feet
Run between the trains and cars, live between the bottles and bars
I can hardly see the bottom line, who's got time to miss the stars

I'm frightened of death, the rasping eternity of a last breath
I'm skin and bone, frantic to scratch my name on a stone
no love, no seed, no god, no creed- only a universe of need

Don't Make a Scene

stepped off the train
swept into an april rain
sickly exhaust fume
sticky honeysuckle bloom

tattoo on concrete
milieu of the street
content to be alone
in the convent of the unknown

don't make a scene

deserted bride
has flirted with pride
too forlorn to blush
in the stillborn dawn hush

grafitti on skin
it's her back-alley sin
strings of dreamy haikus
cling to steamy sinews

don't make a scene

Selene's Daughter

I didn't set out my nets or pull in my lines
trawl for a catch or claim you as mine

Selene's daughter, doubled in the water
I can swim too, but I can't hold you
I'm the tide that pulls you inside
Longs for you, lays you aside

I'll let you slide through my fingers
Let you slide through my hands

I am not a hunter, I am not a beggar
an obligation, or an anchor

Selene's daughter, doubled in the water
I can swim too, but I can't hold you
I'm the tide that pulls you inside
Longs for you, lays you aside

I'll let you slide through my fingers
Let you slide through my hands

wake in my garden

the book drops unobserved from my hands
knowing your thoughts are traveling the same paths
to meet between the forest blue and azure green
to feel the grass prickle my pale and tender skin

you awake in my garden

i get lost in the labyrinth of your eyes
one step closer, the distance seems too wide
where's the blindfold, i will seek and you will hide
within the blossom, beneath the briar

you awake in my garden

you can never love
you can never love
you can never love

but you awake in my garden

Insomniac Moon

don't say it's too late
it's never too late
to dance a reel with fate
under an insomniac moon

your captive eyes
sizzle like fireflies
I'll cut you down to size
under an insomniac moon

so you can go or you can stay
I can take you or leave you either way
and if you ask, then yes, you may
under an insomniac moon

Anything You Want

Anything you want, anything you want baby
Did I catch you sleeping? Did I catch you dreaming?

I'll be the sugar in your lemonade
Don't give a damn what anybody say
Sweet and sticky, lick your fingers after you touch me
Taste the honey. You want it dirty?

Anything you want, anything you want baby
Did I catch you sleeping? Did I catch you dreaming?

You can have your way, baby, you can have your way with me
This is all about you, I'm not even in the room

I'll be the fantasy, you called me and I came
Got my number but you don't need my name
Sweet and sticky, lick your fingers after you touch me
Taste the honey. You want it dirty?

Anything you want, anything you want baby
Did I catch you sleeping? Did I catch you dreaming?

You can have your way, baby, you can have your way with me
This is all about you, I'm not even in the room

Anything you want, anything you want baby
Did I catch you sleeping? Did I catch you dreaming?

We're Alright

Turn down the TV, shut off the light
I'm gonna love you a thousand ways tonight
Put out your cigarette, forget the radio
I'm gonna teach you everything about beauty I know

The world may fall apart... but we're alright
The world may fall apart... but we're alright

Your arms and hands against the tanks and planes
Can't conquer a heart where love remains
I'll take your lips and smile, your skin and teeth and tongue
They can keep the pain and fear and guns

The world may fall apart... but we're alright
The world may fall apart... but we're alright The world may fall, we might lose it all... but we're alright
We're alright

Youth is a Wicked Time

The old woman slapped a paper on the counter
She didn't see she was hitting me too
Twelve eyes, six faces had seen the spaces
between the red, white, and blue

and how many more devoured by the war?
my sister, my brother, civilians and soldiers
nineteen on the front line
youth is a wicked time to learn to die

Is this wrong, is this right, black and white
if only the answers came so easily
but who can build a life upon
the rise and fall of a faceless enemy?

and how many more devoured by the war?
my sister, my brother, civilians and soldiers
nineteen on the front line
youth is a wicked time to learn to die

Evolution

Don't know myself anymore
Changing, but is it for good?
Miss the girl I was before
The world won't stand still, how I wish it would

Used to think I could run against the revolution
but now i think evolution, evolution, evolution

Winter, summer, spring, or fall-
Every day is the same blessed day
Distilled into a throbbing blue ball
Kiss the sunless void then dance my lips away

Used to think I'd see my dreams to a conclusion
but now i think evolution, evolution, evolution

Look at my lengthening bones
brittle as the morning I was born
I slid out naked and alone, filled my tender lungs
before I smiled I learned to mourn

Used to pray, I used to pray for absolution
but now I pray for evolution, evolution, evolution

When I Come to Town

I've done everything right but you've done me wrong
My flesh is weak but my will is strong
I like a good fight and  I love a bad man
Run, run for shelter as fast as you can

I'm like the wind, I'll blow your house down
Get out of my way, no one can stand
When I come to town, not when I come

I get my way or I make things rough
Cry, cry little baby, you're not so tough
I've got enough drama to start my own show
Just give me the money and I'm good to go

I'm like the wind, I'll blow your house down
Get out of my way, no one can stand
When I come to town, not when I come to town

The Way You Move

Everybody's got an angle, a diamond to dangle in front of your eyes
Slip off her clothes, the scent of jasmine and rose is only a disguise

The way you move, the way you move tells me everything, you don't have to say a thing
I could dream, I could dream you into anything
I could, I would, I should

So I waste your time, ain't no reason to my rhyme just what did you expect?
Neither tame nor wild- I'm a woman, I'm a child. Should I be more direct?

The way you move, the way you move tells me everything, you don't have to say a thing
I could dream, I could dream you into anything
I could, I would, I should

Burn darling, burn

Don't look too close, you're gonna see
My spiritual ruin and bankruptcy
It's there in my eyes, here in my thoughts
The pauper, the pagan searching for gods

The altar's so high, so I
could crawl into the airless shadow when your back's turned
Slip up the side, don't cry
when rough stone scrapes the soft skin, it's the lesson i can't seem to learn
Burn darling, burn

If you ask me I'd be tempted to lie
Sing you to sleep with a sweet lullaby
and I'll say whatever you want to hear
the siren, seductress soon to disappear

The altar's so high, so I
could crawl into the airless shadow when your back's turned
Slip up the side, don't cry
when rough stone scrapes the soft skin, it's the lesson i can't seem to learn
Burn darling, burn

I've got a candle for you to light with your flaming fingers
I've got a dead soul you could ignite with your heated hands
Send up the ashes, send up the incense
and don't forget the funeral prayer
Burn darling, burn

Snow

Snow on the cathedral stair
It's always winter there
Doors locked and frozen
but she left a window open

She wants to melt under the December sun
and run into the ocean and shed her soiled skin
but the bitter frost burns so hot and the sun is cold behind the clouds

Snow on the abbey floor
She could not love him any more
So she tried to love him less
A penance to confess

She wants to melt under the December sun
and run into the ocean and shed her soiled skin
but the bitter frost burns so hot and the sun is cold behind the clouds
the snow, the snow, the snow,
the snow keeps coming down

Stained Glass

not the morning after, not the night before
the pulse pushing through my veins
throbbing once or maybe more
i know you know how to find the door

stained glass glowing in the light
you're lovely and luminous tonight
don't want gravity pulling you down to me
i couldn't stand the sight

the door is open, never been barred
won't keep you out or shut you in
don't have a heart beneath this skin
can't break me, i'm already broken

stained glass glowing in the light
you're lovely and luminous tonight
don't want gravity pulling you down to me
i couldn't stand the sight

i'm a mirror for your reflection
fragments in a window pane
doesn't really mean anything
and i plan to keep it that way

stained glass glowing in the light
you're lovely and luminous tonight
don't want gravity pulling you down to me
i couldn't stand the sight

new york, new york

walking down the city block
triple-x and porn shop
caught up in the rush hour flow
pushing past the peep show

maybe she can save your soul
maybe salvation waits behind the red doors
of new york

never thought i'd end up here
faith proved stronger than the fear
give me your tired and your poor
washed up on the concrete shore

maybe she can save your soul
maybe salvation waits behind the red doors
of new york

i read my face, i see my name in the chicken-scratch scrawls
i read my face, i see my name painted on your walls

fate i wait desperately to meet
on 8th and 57th Street
flesh of my flesh, bone of my bone
always and never alone

maybe she can save your soul
maybe salvation waits behind the red doors
of new york

Crocodile Tears

I can be so serious sometimes
Spilling my soul over a bottle of wine
Always was a sucker for a sweet smile
a sharp tooth and crocodile tears

Certain strangers won't disappoint you
but somehow or other that's what they seem to do
Always was a fool for a crooked smile
a pointy tooth and crocodile tears

Hush, hush little baby, don't you cry
Momma's gonna sing you a lullaby
So don't you cry, don't you cry

Baby be careful what you ask for
cuz you might get all your wishes and more
Always had a weakness for a wicked smile
a razor tooth and crocodile tears

Saviour

I'm a stranger to you now cuz I told you how I feel
Just narrow your eyes and pretend you didn't hear me
There isn't enough love to cover all my sins
I'm spreading the disease, so don't get too near me

Wonder why I think I have to say what I have to say?
I have to say it ain't so bad living this way
Maybe it's true, it's true I put myself in danger
But who asked you? who asked you to be my saviour?

You don't recognize me, not the person I've become
Just shake your head and see whatever you want to see
Take the easy way out, come on, give me
something to despise, make it easier on me

Wonder why I think I have to say what I have to say?
I have to say it ain't so bad living this way
Maybe it's true, it's true I put myself in danger
But who asked you? who asked you to be my saviour?

Near Perfect

I know how to fail with near-perfect precision
but I don't know how to feel, will you help with the decision?

I'm gonna end up broken-hearted again

I don't ask for much, I only want perfection
It's not so difficult, just follow my direction

I'm gonna end up broken-hearted again

Where are you tonight? Immersed in some distraction?
If you factor me in I'll be your equal and opposite reaction

I'm gonna end up broken-hearted again

Another Prodigal Son

Guess this is it, guess it's time to leave
You've made it very clear you don't want any part of me
No room for grace, I've had enough of this place

I came here with a dream but I ended up in hell
You don't want a girl, you need a package to sell
Think I'm that kind of trash? well I'll never kiss your ass

I'd give you everything, my little soul cries out to sing but no one is listening
just smile and nod, nod and applaud
Sometimes I think I hate you, I want to spit in your faces cuz you're not listening
you just smile and nod, nod and applaud
Another prodigal son has left the building

Paying for the chance to expose my innocence
to a worthless little herd without intelligence
Well, you can keep your money, I prefer my dignity

Had a head full of clouds, had eyes full of stars
till I drowned my dreams in some redneck bars
I'm sick of cowboys, will the real men step forward, please?

I'd give you everything, my little soul cries out to sing but no one is listening
just smile and nod, nod and applaud
Sometimes I think I hate you, I want to spit in your faces cuz you're not listening
you just smile and nod, nod and applaud
Another prodigal son has left the building

Lily-white

You're a lily-white virgin, You're the foulest whore
He's gonna get you on your knees, he's gonna have you on the floor
Call yourself anything you want, but you're just the latest score
His little whore

You can greet him with blessings or call down a bitter curse
You won't be the last and you sure as hell were not the first
He wrote the book and you know it, chapter and verse, call down a curse
He wrote the book and you know it, chapter and verse, you weren't the first

Do you need me to spell out for you? Stupid, stupid?
Do you need me to spell it out, spell it out?
Stupid, stupid

Just sit back and relax now cuz it's too late to run
He's gonna feed you the wafer, the wine, and his holy son
So close your eyes girl and open your mouth for the gun, too late to run
Close your eyes girl and open your mouth for the gun, his holy son

Do you need me to spell out for you? Stupid, stupid?
Do you need me to spell it out, spell it out?
Stupid, stupid
Stupid, stupid

What a Real Man Can Do

Thought I was above this, but no, I'm just another little whore
Used, abused, paid off, and ushered through the door

How did I come to this place?
I thought you'd want me
How did I come to this place?
I thought you'd need me

and that just goes to show
how little some people know
you can steal my beauty but you will never own my soul

I'm gonna take you, take you, break you in two
I'm gonna show you what a real man can do
I'm gonna take you, take you, break you
I'm gonna show you what a real man can do

Avoid meeting my eyes, it's not like I'm in the same class as you
Doesn't hurt now, after awhile you get used to being screwed

I'm gonna take you, take you, break you in two
I'm gonna show you what a real man can do
I'm gonna take you, take you, break you
I'm gonna show you what a real man can do

Always Feel the Need

City makes me miss the stars. some things in life can't be bought
I'll share a moonlit night with you, if it's a snare I'm willingly caught

The night's not long enough, my will's not strong enough
to hold this moment still, I'll never get my fill
Cannot kill my greed, always feel the need
for more of you

City makes me miss the stars replaced with hollow desire
If i know what's good for me I'll throw my avarice down on the fire

The night's not long enough, my will's not strong enough
to hold this moment still, I'll never get my fill
Cannot kill my greed, always feel the need
for more of you

Never That Simple

gonna take this breath, make it last forever
gonna take this afternoon and stretch it out longer
I wanna take it slow, one sweet endeavour
but it's never that simple. never that simple

gonna stop the clocks and keep back the evening
I ain't getting up. no, i'm never leaving
I'm gonna take it slow, one sweet endeavour
but it's never that simple, never that simple

I could fall for you against my better judgement
sink into you and never rise again
we could take it slow, one sweet endeavour
but it's never that simple
never that simple

We Survive

I can't stop you with a thing I say
doesn't matter, you'll do it anyway
like a martyr you run into the flame
saying, "oh my daughter, do not be ashamed."

We survive, we survive, we survive, we survive

3 generations under the same curse
bow your head and lift your skirt
nurse the wounds but keep them out of sight
full of anger without the will to fight

We survive, we survive, we survive, we survive

September

Painted on a coiled grey cell, the afternoon light of September
Blood that shatters with a smile even the bones will remember

A soul, so much the same
how is this possible?
wanderer, no cage could hold her
but she doesn't want to escape
she doesn't want to escape

Memorize dangerous eyes in the first cool rush of evening
Still some history in the air, words that don't need speaking

A soul, so much the same
how is this possible?
wanderer, no cage could hold her
but she doesn't want to escape
she doesn't want to escape

Safer on the Ground

Looking for your father
Calling for your mother
Praying for your sister
What's lost can never be found

Splashing through puddles
Chasing after rainbows
Running into troubles
What's lost can never be found

When you've been stood up, when you've been let down
When you can't trust anyone, you're safer on the ground
Safer on the ground

Kneeling at an altar
Searching for a saviour
Desperate for an answer
What's lost can never be found

Choosing your addiction
Losing your religion
Just another victim
What's lost can never be found

When you've been stood up, when you've been let down
When you can't trust anyone, you're safer on the ground
Safer on the ground

Sharpening the Knives

I owe you a scratch or two
but I'm not keeping score
I just wanna know that I hurt you more

You can have your letters back
I know it ain't the cure
I just wanna know that I hurt you more

I could be the nicest girl you have ever seen
but even nice girls can be cruel, nice girls can turn mean
when defending our pride, when fighting for our lives
Send us to the kitchen and we'll be sharpening the knives

Don't lament me or torment me
if you're still unsure
I just wanna know that I hurt you
I just wanna know that I hurt you more

Bitter Cup

lord, I've tasted all the sorrow I can stand to swallow
but you're still holding this bitter cup to my lips
I don't think I can drink another blessed drop
it tastes of death, despair, and loneliness

give me a little faith, a little faith to face another day
i need a little strength, a little strength to make it through tomorrow

lord, it seems somehow I'm right back where I started
don't wanna walk that dusty road alone
you said you'd carry me, carry me when I can't go on
I need you to come now and carry me home

or give me a little faith, a little faith to face another day
I need a little strength, a little strength to make it through tomorrow

Don't Remember Me

I am the withering flower that's lost its bloom
I always fade faster when you're in the room
If I could take just one precious thing from you
I'd take the memories you're no longer entitled to

I don't want you to remember me
not my laughter, not my kisses,
not my body, not my secrets
just forget it, please, please

I am the withering flower crushed underfoot
A slight bit of sweet scent without any root
Full of regret for what i've let myself become
A pale little posey, scared to stretch out for the sun

I don't want you to remember me
not my laughter, not my kisses,
not my body, not my secrets
just forget it, please, please

9.23.2003

Already In Me

Gotta learn to be led by my head instead of my heart
'cuz where she falls I always go tumbling after
Pick my aching body up, brush off the dust
and vow this is the last time I let myself trust her

You're already in me, already looking for another love
You're already in me, already looking for another love
And I'm vanishing in your arms while your eyes are busy searching for the door
but you're already in me

I lay awake with my cheek resting on your chest
and listen to the rhythm of your blood and your breath
Then you turn away in your sleep, you turn your back on me
two bodies joined and separated by loneliness

You're already in me, already looking for another love
You're already in me, already looking for another love
And I'm vanishing in your arms while your eyes are busy searching for the door
but you're already in me

Everything in me wants to tell you, "Don't leave."
Everything in me wants to say, "Please stay with me."
"Don't leave. Please stay with me."

You're already in me, already looking for another love
You're already in me, already looking for another love
And I'm vanishing in your arms while your eyes are busy searching for the door
but you're already in me

7.17.2003

Come Home

I got lost in the candle flame
thought I heard you calling my name
so I let my soul float up to the rafters
chasing the echoes of your laughter

when will you come home?

Brooklyn skies are baby blue
boy I'm lonely, lonely for you
the window is cold but my hands burn
wait for the stranger to return

when will you come home?

weary of running my own defense
pull me under you and it all makes sense

when will you come home?