10.28.2000

Juliet

your ghost walked up, said hello
i saw right through you, down to your soul
how we got here, i don't know
i never meant to let it go so far

hand in hand, yours is cold
there's no warmth in you, only ice & snow
how we got here, i don't know
i never meant to let it go so far

thought i was your juliet, you were my romeo
how did that story end? oh, i remember, oh

i never meant to let it go so far

you're an illusion, you are a snare
your eyes are prison bars, hold me if you dare
how we got here, i don't know
i never meant to let it go so far

thought i was your juliet, you were my romeo
how did that story end? oh, i remember, oh

i never meant to let it go so far

Outstrip Fate

i've been to the mountain, i've been to the sea
the earth won't share her secret with me
the wind told me to send my soul floating free
but i'm still anchored securely, lost & lonely

i want to run away,
but would my feet be fleet enough to outstrip my fate

i've been wounded & i'm bleeding pride
a little girl with trusting arms stretched wide
to catch a love that cheated, stole, abondoned, & lied
no time to mourn, just another thorn-pierced side

i want to run away
but would my feet be fleet enough to outstrip my fate

good intentions & kindly meant advice
everyone thinks they know how to fix my life
ignore the heartache, smile & play nice
but don't ask why, don't ever ask why

i want to run away, but would my feet be fleet enough to outstrip my fate

Nothing to Kill

cut yourself on my sharp edges?
can this be the first time that you've bled?
i've lost so much i'm all dried up
now i can't cry so i laugh instead

bruised yourself on my hard corners?
is this the first time you've had to heal?
i've fallen so much, my bones are splintered
probing for pain that i can't feel

when there's nothing to feel, nothing to kill, nothing to heal
it's all over

poisoned yourself on my bitter dregs?
it won't be the last time you'll taste this brew
i've drunk so much, it's in my veins now
and one day it will run through you

drown yourself in my cool water
'cuz this is the last time you'll leave the shore
i've sunk so much, i can't remember rising
another wreck lying on the floor

when there's nothing to feel, nothing to kill, nothing to heal
it's all over

Happy Baby

you wanna make me happy, baby?
it's easy to make me happy, baby
cuz i get so happy whenever you go

you wanna make me smile, baby?
it's easy to make me smile, baby
you'll see me smile when you leave me alone

i'll do whatever it takes
you made the bid, but i'll raise the stakes
i'll make you happy, baby
just you wait & see

you wanna hear me laughing, baby?
it's easy to hear me laughing, baby
cuz i'm always laughing when you turn your back

you wanna hear me singing, baby?
it's easy to hear me singing, baby
i'm singing now about the love you lack

i'll do whatever it takes
you made the bid, but i'll raise the stakes
i'll make you happy, baby
just you wait & see

better pretend, better defend myself with a wall
so no one can crawl inside & see how weak, how weak i really am

i'll do whatever it takes
you made the bid, but i'll raise the stakes
i'll make you happy, baby
just you wait & see

9.23.2000

Already Too Late

Silence is full of things unsaid
I cannot breathe deep enough to get you out of my head
The moon's light is thick upon our eyes
Summoning an enchantment that separates the truth from the lives

You've seen too much
Do you realize, you've seen too much?
You've seen too much

It's already too late for me to leave without regret
but you can escape if you haven't been captured yet
It's already too late for me to stop my fall
but if you escape I wouldn't blame you at all
I wouldn't blame you
I wouldn't blame you

Secrets come spilling from within
Do you think you can unravel the tangle beneath my skin
But what you discover inside
May only disappoint you and I feel compelled to hide


You've seen too much
Do you realize, you've seen too much?
You've seen too much

It's already too late for me to leave without regret
but you can escape if you haven't been captured yet
It's already too late for me to stop my fall
but if you escape I wouldn't blame you at all
I wouldn't blame you
I wouldn't blame you

1.28.2000

Love Will Come

love will come & i may be more than a little unprepared
but it will come even if i'm sullen, stung, & scared
he won't preach to me about the difference between right & wrong
he'll just take my hand, hold me close, & lead me on

love will come
love will come & it will never, never leave again

love will come & it won't diminsh the beauty of my soul
it will come & return the innocence a stranger once stole
he won't tell me who he thinks i am or who he wants me to become
he'll just take my hand, hold me close, & whisper "well done."

love will come
love will come & it will never, never leave