Nothing but bones where a home used to lay
A picture on the front steps is all I've got left
When the echo of our footsteps has faded away
If I go chasing after the wind, to find there's nothing new under the sun
Remind this aching heart of mine that everything is made beautiful in time
Nothing but bones where a home used to breathe
I'm seeing things, ghosts wandering
In the wreckage their unfulfilled dreams
If I go chasing after the wind, to find there's nothing new under the sun
Remind this aching heart of mine that everything is made beautiful in time
I'll put on my best dress and dance all night
I'll put on my best dress and dance all night
I'll put on my best dress and dance all night
Laughter drives away the sorrow
and blindness heals the sight
Blindness heals the sight
If I go chasing after the wind, to find there's nothing new under the sun
Remind this aching heart of mine that everything is made beautiful in time
Everything is made beautiful in time
9.23.1999
Chasing After the Wind
Posted by jessi at Thursday, September 23, 1999
Labels: Chasing After the Wind
9.22.1999
Tumble Down
If I run out in the rain, close my eyes to everything
Open my mouth to catch the drops, to sear my throat with fire
Will you think it's strange?
It's salt upon my tongue, a racing flame within my veins
I tumble down to the earth, I tumble down in the mud
Do you think it's strange?
I didn't ever really want you to understand anything
I didn't ever really want you to understand anything
I didn't ever really want you to understand anything
Do you blame me? I am the one to blame?
I live on insubstantial dreams, a feast of sugar-plum schemes
Santa stuffed my stocking full of poetry and stars and coal
Do you think it's strange
I didn't ever really want you to understand anything
I didn't ever really want you to understand anything
I didn't ever really want you to understand anything
Do you blame me? I am the one to blame?
I tumble down to the earth, I tumble down in the mud
Do you think it's strange?
Spin in circles till we fall, till it all comes crashing down
Do you think it's strange?
I didn't ever really want you to understand anything
I didn't ever really want you to understand anything
I didn't ever really want you to understand anything
Do you blame me? I am the one to blame?
Posted by jessi at Wednesday, September 22, 1999
Labels: Tumble Down
9.20.1999
Can It Be Forgiven
There's always a reason, some kind of excuse
For what I've become and what I've been
You see who I should be, you see who I am
How the sacred and the sin
Get tangled up in knots beneath my skin
The selfishness inside me, can it be forgiven?
The jealousy inside me, can it be forgiven?
The bitterness inside me, can it be forgiven?
The anger inside me, can it be forgiven?
Can it be forgiven?
I wanted to say this isn't my fault
To find someone or something to blame
Then you took my face into your lovely hands
My guilt touched by innocence
and we both came away unstained
The selfishness inside me, can it be forgiven?
The jealousy inside me, can it be forgiven?
The bitterness inside me, can it be forgiven?
The anger inside me, can it be forgiven?
Can it be forgiven?
Posted by jessi at Monday, September 20, 1999
Labels: Can It Be Forgiven
8.23.1999
What You Do
You saw me when I made myself invisible
You heard me though I didn't raise my voice
You knew me when I hid my heart from you
and I thought no one knew
Do you ever realize what it is you do to me?
You loved me when I refused to change
You touched me even when I was afraid
You held me with the smile in your eyes
and I thought no one knew
Do you ever realize what it is you do to me?
Do you ever realize what it is you do to me?
Do you ever realize what it is you do to me?
Posted by jessi at Monday, August 23, 1999
Labels: What You Do
7.23.1999
Cinders
The stars rain a chill light but I never feel the cold
My eyes burn clean and clear, my hands are full of cinders
I am dirty, I am ugly, but I feel as if I'm beautiful
My eyes flame clean and clear, my hands are stained with cinders
You could make me shine for a night, make me shine for a night
In your reflected light, it's only your reflected light
But come the morning, come the morning
My eyes wouldn't sparkle so bright
I'm content as I am, lucid visions dance
My eyes flame clean and clear, my hands are caked with cinders
I am dirty, I am ugly, but I feel as if I'm beautiful
My eyes flame clean and clear, and I'm not ashamed of the cinders
You could make me shine for a night, make me shine for a night
In your reflected light, it's only your reflected light
But come the morning, come the morning
My eyes wouldn't sparkle so bright
Don't slay my dragons, don't come to my rescue
I don't need no saving and I don't want a hero
Leave your polished armor home or just leave me alone
My eyes flame clean and clear, and I don't fear the cinders
You could make me shine for a night, make me shine for a night
In your reflected light, it's only your reflected light
But come the morning, come the morning
My eyes wouldn't sparkle so bright
I am dirty, I am ugly, but I feel as if I'm beautiful
Posted by jessi at Friday, July 23, 1999
Labels: Cinders
Fall With Me
I caught light kissing rain beneath the bright cathedral of a swirling sky
Locked in a desperate embrace, a hopeless race with time, an irresistible goodbye
Fall, fall with me
Leaves dancing with wind, blushing at each breath that brushes their skin
I see them bursting into flame, breaking into flight, an irresistible goodbye
Fall, fall with me
Posted by jessi at Friday, July 23, 1999
Labels: Fall With Me
6.23.1999
Why Should I Weep For the Morning
Tonight I will dance like a child under the moon
and fill my lungs with the silver autumn air
I will breathe deep until my soul is shattered
and I will leave all the pieces lying there
Why should I weep for the morning?
I don't know what tomorrow will bring
Tonight I will ache with the purest of joys
that sends me crumbling, stumbling to my knees
I will rejoice in the weakness of my fall
and the redemption your love has wrought in me
Why should I weep for the morning?
I don't know what tomorrow will bring
Tonight I will tear this veil from my eyes
and open them wide and newborn in the light
I will awake in the innocent tomorrow
After kissing every lonely star goodnight
Why should I weep for the morning?
I don't know what tomorrow will bring
Posted by jessi at Wednesday, June 23, 1999
5.23.1999
Never Needed
I can't decipher the messages in your eyes
but I can tell you think they've been received
I caught the truth cuddling up to the lies
Beneath a blanket of dreams that I'd like to believe in
But you never let me sleep in
If I were braver, I'd tell you that I stay awake to watch you sleep
and even in the next room I can feel you breathe
and I envy every breath that fills your lungs
'cuz you need air like you never needed me
you never needed me
You speak a language of furtive sideways glances
but fail to realize that I never learned to translate
Your voice is unwilling to take any more chances
and silence is too selfish to give anything away
But if I was braver, I'd tell you that I stay awake to watch you sleep
and even in the next room I can feel you breathe
and I envy every breath that fills your lungs
'cuz you need air like you never needed me
you never needed me
Posted by jessi at Sunday, May 23, 1999
Labels: Never Needed