8.23.1999

What You Do

You saw me when I made myself invisible
You heard me though I didn't raise my voice
You knew me when I hid my heart from you
and I thought no one knew

Do you ever realize what it is you do to me?

You loved me when I refused to change
You touched me even when I was afraid
You held me with the smile in your eyes
and I thought no one knew

Do you ever realize what it is you do to me?
Do you ever realize what it is you do to me?
Do you ever realize what it is you do to me?

7.23.1999

Cinders

The stars rain a chill light but I never feel the cold
My eyes burn clean and clear, my hands are full of cinders
I am dirty, I am ugly, but I feel as if I'm beautiful
My eyes flame clean and clear, my hands are stained with cinders

You could make me shine for a night, make me shine for a night
In your reflected light, it's only your reflected light
But come the morning, come the morning
My eyes wouldn't sparkle so bright

I'm content as I am, lucid visions dance
My eyes flame clean and clear, my hands are caked with cinders
I am dirty, I am ugly, but I feel as if I'm beautiful
My eyes flame clean and clear, and I'm not ashamed of the cinders

You could make me shine for a night, make me shine for a night
In your reflected light, it's only your reflected light
But come the morning, come the morning
My eyes wouldn't sparkle so bright

Don't slay my dragons, don't come to my rescue
I don't need no saving and I don't want a hero
Leave your polished armor home or just leave me alone
My eyes flame clean and clear, and I don't fear the cinders


You could make me shine for a night, make me shine for a night
In your reflected light, it's only your reflected light
But come the morning, come the morning
My eyes wouldn't sparkle so bright

I am dirty, I am ugly, but I feel as if I'm beautiful

Fall With Me

I caught light kissing rain beneath the bright cathedral of a swirling sky
Locked in a desperate embrace, a hopeless race with time, an irresistible goodbye

Fall, fall with me

Leaves dancing with wind, blushing at each breath that brushes their skin
I see them bursting into flame, breaking into flight, an irresistible goodbye

Fall, fall with me

6.23.1999

Why Should I Weep For the Morning

Tonight I will dance like a child under the moon
and fill my lungs with the silver autumn air
I will breathe deep until my soul is shattered
and I will leave all the pieces lying there

Why should I weep for the morning?
I don't know what tomorrow will bring

Tonight I will ache with the purest of joys
that sends me crumbling, stumbling to my knees
I will rejoice in the weakness of my fall
and the redemption your love has wrought in me

Why should I weep for the morning?
I don't know what tomorrow will bring

Tonight I will tear this veil from my eyes
and open them wide and newborn in the light
I will awake in the innocent tomorrow
After kissing every lonely star goodnight

Why should I weep for the morning?
I don't know what tomorrow will bring

5.23.1999

Never Needed

I can't decipher the messages in your eyes
but I can tell you think they've been received
I caught the truth cuddling up to the lies
Beneath a blanket of dreams that I'd like to believe in
But you never let me sleep in

If I were braver, I'd tell you that I stay awake to watch you sleep
and even in the next room I can feel you breathe
and I envy every breath that fills your lungs
'cuz you need air like you never needed me
you never needed me

You speak a language of furtive sideways glances
but fail to realize that I never learned to translate
Your voice is unwilling to take any more chances
and silence is too selfish to give anything away


But if I was braver, I'd tell you that I stay awake to watch you sleep
and even in the next room I can feel you breathe
and I envy every breath that fills your lungs
'cuz you need air like you never needed me
you never needed me

9.23.1997

Metamorphosis

My cocoon has grown confining
think I'd like to stretch my wings
Feel the dew evaporating
As the sun beams down and sings

Reach for your piece of sky
Never fear what eyes can see
And when you've found your strength to fly
You'll know that you are free

There are stars I've never noticed
Clinging to the arms of night
In luminous whirls of color
Bleeding hope to feed my sight

I'll reach for my piece of sky
Never fear what eyes can see
And when I've found my strength to fly
I'll know that I am free

and I'll lose, lose myself
in that blue, blue, blue sea
I'll lose, lose myself
and finally

I'll reach for my piece of sky
Never fear what eyes can see
And when I've found my strength to fly
I'll know that I am free