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i'm gonna smack your cheek
i'm gonna smack your cheek
don't try to speak, you're up the creek
without a paddle

i'm gonna kick you in the teeth
i'm gonna kick you in the teeth
now that's the score, you lost the war
and i won the battle

get your hands off my cookies you had your share
get your hands off my cookies you had your share
get your hands off my cookies you had your share
you can go to hell, i'll send you there

i'm gonna rip out your tongue
i'm gonna rip out your tongue
don't even run, i've just begun
i've hardly started

i'm gonna pluck out your eyes
i'm gonna pluck out your eyes
don't even cry, don't ask me why
i'm so cold-hearted

get your hands off my cookies you had your share
get your hands off my cookies you had your share
get your hands off my cookies you had your share
you can go to hell, i'll send you there

love will find me

when i walk home i never feel lonely
it's spring and i'm coming back to life again
i am held by the wind, baptized by the rain
waltz with the blossoms, drift to the pavement

i still believe love will find me
love will find me

i know the thoughts that cross your mind
i'm holding on for truth of a different kind
kisses that shake me, make my body sing
eyes that look within, that see past the skin

i still believe love will find me
love will find me

sometimes i surrender to the moment
cuz i'm not sure if tomorrow's really coming
the whole world's at war, fighting for nothing
the building's are falling, we're all for the killing

but i still believe love will find me
love will find me

casually

why do you feel the need to lie? i'm not gonna fall for it
i'm not sixteen anymore
all those pretty words you spout, like i won't figure it out
like i haven't been through this before

you say nobody sees me for who i am
to imply you do as you try to woo me with the weakest sham
but i see through you

you didn't let me down
you didn't let me down
you just met my lowest expectation
and i am disappointed but not surprised

that's the beginning and the end, now don't bother to pretend
like you're actually worried for me
cuz it don't matter anyway, got my heart break stowed away
for someone who's worth the agony

you say you wanna kiss me, my composure slips
cuz it's easy to see how casually things pass your lips
i want none of it

you didn't let me down
you didn't let me down
you just met my lowest expectation
and i am disappointed but not surprised

you must think i'm stupid
i am disappointed
but unsuprised

weapons of mass destruction

dragged you around like you were my old ball n' chain
but it was all in my head, i must have been insane
now i'll shoot you through the heart, a nice clean bullet wound
so you can get on with your life and mine can finally resume

i stumble around in a fog of my own making
but i'm not taking any prisoners anymore
i stumble around in the fallout i called down
but i'm not crowning any kings anymore

strung on a line, all of you i've loved for nothing
say you love me forever, but lies don't soothe the sting
so i'll let my arrows fly, shoot down your once-upon-a-times
so happily ever after won't have to die for your crimes

i stumble around in a fog of my own making
but i'm not taking any prisoners anymore
i stumble around in the fallout i called down
but i'm not crowning any kings anymore

i wasn't made for anyone else
so i will unmake myself

everybody's in trouble

it's coming down, coming down, coming down
you brought the rain
and if it stops i'll do a dance and say a prayer
to bring it back down again

today i'll go for a walk and get soaked to the skin
today i'll let the rain replace the pain i'm bathing in

everybody's in trouble
breaking to pieces
where are the kings men when you need 'em

i just wanna know that you're alright
at least one of us should make it out alive

it's coming down, coming down, coming down
to a nasty fall
couldn't stay safe below i had to climb up and
risk it all

today i'll find a way to mend my splintered bones
today i'll let the fall rupture my heart of stone

everybody's in trouble
breaking to pieces
where are the kings men when you need 'em

i just wanna know that you're alright
at least one of us should make it out alive

all you see

you take it in the gut
when he calls you a thief, a liar, & a slut
tears a hole in your shirt
& tells you to go change into a longer skirt

little girl
why don't you stay down
when he knocks you to the ground?
you just keep getting up
cuz all you see
is love

excuses wearing thin
bruises blossom beneath your skin
you said you fell again
split your lip, chipped a tooth, busted your chin

little girl
why don't you stay down
when he knocks you to the ground?
you just keep getting up
cuz all you see
is love

you tell me not to pry
you've got your reasons, i don't need to know why
but you're staying till the end
& if i question you i'm not really your friend

little girl
why don't you stay down
when he knocks you to the ground?
you just keep getting up
cuz all you see
is love

eggshell heart

i broke my eggshell heart against the lip of your cup
tried to hide how raw i felt inside but i wasn't firm enough
now the embryo of love is pooling on the table
i'm helpless, unable to stop its mad rush
i could quiver, i could blush
but i refuse to die twice

i've felt love in all its shades & degress
felt it hardening my resolve & weakening my knees
saw its open jaws & sent myself hurtling in
to fall down, humpty-dumpty & never get the lesson
i could whimper, i could cry
but i refuse to die twice

so i devour your hunger like a storybook
& look up in time to catch you in a lingering look
place my eggshell heart within your capable hands
you can take me or break me- i understand
won't be long before i'm gone
because i refuse to die twice

quiet from chaos

let's us go down to the lake
sit in the winter grass
no promises to make
the water's a looking glass

& in the mirror i see
sky spin out infinitely
sun's winter doubt wavering
clouds strung across a canopy
& hush until we can still chaos with
our quiet

i'll wrap one arm around my knees
while you skip stones
& pick at last year's leaves
& pretend not to feel alone

in the mirror i see
sky spin out infinitely
sun's winter doubt wavering
clouds strung across a canopy
& hush until we can still chaos with
our quiet

don't bend my ear to what i don't want to hear
& i swear i will do the same for you
hush until we can still chaos with
our quiet

Spine

i'll be fine.
i've got a spine made of iron, fortified with wine
i'll watch you from the corner of my eye
then i'll sigh,
then i'll leave without saying goodbye

i'll be fine.
toe the line, bite my lip, but won't give you a sign
i'll write songs to no one but they're all for you
it's what i do
tell the truth without telling the truth

if there's one thing you can take away with you
remember i'm foolishly stubborn & endlessly blue
but i'll be fine
cuz i'm always always always alright

i'll be fine.
i will sign what you desire on the bottom line
i'll tear my own heart in two before
you can do it
i don't want to go through it

i'll be fine.
i've got a spine made of iron, fortified with wine
i'll watch you from the corner of my eye
then i'll sigh,
then i'll leave without saying goodbye

if there's one thing you can take away with you
remember i'm foolishly stubborn & endlessly blue
but i'll be fine
cuz i'm always always always alright

i've always been a sucker for
anyone who would suck me in
& use me up & spit me out & do it all again
but i'll be fine
cuz i'm always always always
alright

breaking or broken

night unfolds, rose petals
& i'm holding a vigil again
candle light, another night
heartbreaking or heartbroken

waltz alone in the streetlight glow
glistening in the rain

& everything seems more beautiful
when i'm wishing wishing wishing
for someone to share it with

watch the clock, never stops
edging toward blooming sun
toss & turn, flame still burns
heartbreaking or heartbroken

naked trees laugh at the breeze
buffeting their skin

& everything seems more beautiful
when i'm wishing wishing wishing
for someone to share it with

sometimes i feel like i don't exist
or maybe i'm the only one left alive

natural selection

it's a jungle
it's a jungle in the city
wanna beat me?
wanna eat me?
it's natural selection

but i won't fight you for it
so step back
i won't fight you

it's survival
it's survival of the fittest
wanna fight me?
wanna bite me?
it's natural selection

but i won't fight you for it
so step back
i won't fight you

cuz i don't need anyone
i won't fight you

Home, Finally

my life's strange & unpredictable
reads like a novel, like a screenplay
a puzzle with a million jagged pieces
fragments that just fall into place
with no mistakes to erase

if life gets any more beautiful my heart might break
at the unlooked for happiness trailing in its wake
my heart might break

watch night form solidly
floor of cloud beneath a plane wing
stars transmit secret meaning
while the engine throbs & sings me
home, finally

if life gets any more beautiful my heart might break
at the unlooked for happiness trailing in its wake
my heart might break

losing someone

five o' clock, i am locked in a train
tempted to pull the emergency break
to stop myself from rolling out of control
off the tracks, a runaway
but my wicked smile says i don't mind, it's ok

i dream when i am wide awake
craving for the taste of
another heartbreak on my tongue
cuz nothing is as sweet as losing someone
losing someone

same thoughts hide behind each face
no differences beneath flannel or lace
i'll take you all on the ride of your lives
just give me your hands & close your eyes
my weary smile says never mind, it's alright

i dream when i am wide awake
craving for the taste of
another heartbreak on my tongue
cuz nothing is as sweet as losing someone
losing someone

happiness hurts

i don't want anything to change
hang the year in a picture frame
scratch my name on the window pane
to say i was here

wandering room after room
shadows of unknown disasters loom
soon i'll be singing a broken tune
to ward off fear

happiness hurts
cuz i can't make it last
it's moving too fast, another year past
happiness hurts cuz i can't make it last

flecks of dust floating in gold
i stop to watch the dance unfold
some of us young are untellably old
we can't forget

how many loves did i lose?
offered up as a gift to my muse
she's always hungry and i can't refuse
but no regret

happiness hurts
cuz i can't make it last
it's moving too fast, another year past
happiness hurts cuz i can't make it last

rebirth

when you were young
you had to run & run & run
& outrun the pain
of your need, of your desire
you had to bleed & bleed
& burn in the fire

cuz it's urgent, it's urgent, it's urgent
tomorrow you won't know why
& the pain burrows down so deep
you think you're going to die

till you fall exhausted to the ground
with the weight of your life pressing you down
till slow, slow, slow
you feel the earth revolve beneath you
you feel the rain fall absolve you

love is a seed, plant it deep
it grows, grows out of control
love is a flame, it defeats the ice
& laughs & laughs & kisses the snow

till you reach toward the sky
push through the soil
& strain, strain, strain through the earth
break the surface, break the curses
& glow, glow, glow
in the light of rebirth

just don't give up hope
everything resolves itself in time
& love will not be denied

brown eyes

every time i see your brown eyes, brown eyes
i get lost
every time i see your brown eyes, brown eyes
i count the cost

i think you're worth a little pain
just don't bring the rain
don't bring the rain

every time i see your brown eyes, brown eyes
makes me smile
every time i see your brown eyes, brown eyes
i wanna say 'just stay here awhile'

i think you're worth a little pain
just don't bring the rain
don't bring the rain

every time i see your brown eyes, brown eyes
i get blue
every time i see your brown eyes, brown eyes
i fall in love with you

i think you're worth a little pain
just don't bring the rain
don't bring the rain

communion (you wanna shut my mouth)

let me partake of the daydreams that will eventually break my heart
blood on my tongue, body undone, now it's my turn to come apart

you don't know me, this bundle of flesh and bone stretched across the floor
you don't owe me this debt of cruelty as you turn me out the door

i see, i see, i see
everything you thought you hid from me

i feel fingers slide over my mouth and tighten their grip on my arm
love is a weapon, i'm not a victim but i feel like i'm falling apart

you don't know me, this bundle of flesh and bone stretched across the floor
you don't owe me this debt of cruelty as you turn me out the door

i see, i see, i see
everything you thought you hid from me

you wanna shut my mouth, you wanna shut my mouth, you wanna shut my mouth
i know you do
i know you do

but you don't know me, this bundle of flesh and bone stretched across the floor
you don't owe me this debt of cruelty as you turn me out the door

shrug like a devil

so go laugh behind my back
and sleep with all my friends
what good are they to me anyway
when they'd trade my trust for your bed

i can smile like an angel, shrug like a devil
and leave you to find your own heaven or hell

but don't think that i don't know, don't think i'll let you come in the door
or climb in my window, it's 4 am and i am just fine on my own
and you are the one who's scared to be alone
who's scared to be alone

so go ahead, drown me out
with another predictable joke
i wouldn't waste my breath anyway
cuz i'm saving it up for a smoke

i can smile like an angel, shrug like a devil
and leave you to find your own heaven or hell

but don't think that i don't know, don't think i'll let you come in the door
or climb in my window, it's 4 am and i am just fine on my own
and you are the one who's scared to be alone
who's scared to be alone

orlando (cells & divisions)

off off off with pearls & ribbons
down down down to the skin
discarded wigs & powders
unguarded by fans or feathers

society's been sitting my judge & jury
but i don't need no help to make my own decisions
it's my heart confined within these cells & their divisions
and i am beautiful without
i am beautiful without the sentence of my peers passed down
there's no deliberation here

burn burn burn the labels & names
turn turn turn every page the same
trample on the tools of etiquette & status
sample the forbidden feast of habit & fetish

society's been sitting my judge & jury
but i don't need no help to make my own decisions
it's my heart confined within these cells & their divisions
and i am beautiful without
i am beautiful without the sentence of my peers passed down
there's no deliberation here

sinister height

catch me, hook line & sinker
pluck me from friendly water
dangle me in enemy air
reel me into a net of despair

i will fight fight fight until i die
i will bite your hand, blind your eye
bruise your flesh, break your will
throw me back while you still have a chance

bait me with a tainted lure
tease me until i can't be sure
if up is down, if left is right, alright
raise me from my depths to your sinister height

i will fight fight fight until i die
i will bite your hand, blind your eye
bruise your flesh, break your will
throw me back while you still have a chance