revolving door

what i could tell you
the things i've been through
since i last spoke with you

what i could show you
the girl you never knew
a truth that isn't true

revolving door, take me for a ride
i can't get out the way i got inside
revolving door, take me for a spin
i can't get out the way that i got in

what does free look like anyway?
yesterday is still today.

what i could give you
a place of refuge
to take your cares to

i could still love you
with bone and marrow
with flesh and sinew

revolving door, take me for a ride
i can't get out the way i got inside
revolving door, take me for a spin
i can't get out the way that i got in

what does free look like anyway?
yesterday is still today.

worst case

what could
what could not
what should have been
regret
i'm not finished yet
what would have been

you're my last case, my first case, the worst case
the face i put on the blues

what will
what will not
what should not be
regret
i'm still in your debt
what would not be

you're my last case, my first case, the worst case
the face i put on the blues

i cannot have you
you're my worst case
the face i put on the blues

more or less

you love me because i make you see how beautiful you could be
you hate me because i make you see how you fail

it's easy to tell a pretty lie when honesty will not satisfy
but i can't candy-coat the things i feel

i am not afraid of any poison, of any blade
i can take the weight of this mess we're in- it's not too late
just don't turn away. i could not love you more or less than i do today.

you love me because i make you feel the distance between false and real
you hate me because i make you feel ashamed

it's easy to tell a pretty lie when honesty will not satisfy
but i can't candy-coat the things i feel

i am not afraid of any poison, of any blade
i can take the weight of this mess we're in- it's not too late
just don't turn away. i could not love you more or less than i do today.

crown of thorns

baby, i feel a bit like Jesus
hung up, senseless
strung up, useless
sick enough to admit i'd do it again
not a question of how, just a matter of when

i'll weave your thorns into a crown
i'll pull you down over my brow
you say, 'this pain's getting to be an old story.'
i say, 'baby, so are we,
but the rose that grows from our sunless soil never smelled so sweet.'

baby, i feel a bit like Judas
greedy, remorseless
betrayal in my kiss
slaying my pride to stay at your side
wolf in sheep's clothing, crucified

i'll weave your thorns into a crown
i'll pull you down over my brow
you say, 'this pain's getting to be an old story.'
i say, 'baby, so are we,
but the rose that grows from our sunless soil never smelled so sweet.'

to give out, to give up, to give in
i am willing
to give-
my kingdom for a crown

girl/accessory

turn my poetry into prose
deny me 3x before the cock crows
hunched shoulders, pull up my hood
damn me, eternally misunderstood

i won't look you in the eye
while you recreate me
however you want me to be
the perfect accessory
the perfect lie

turn my water into stone
or send me running like a bitch after a bone
clenched hands, bite my tongue
damn me, i'm always through but i'm never done

i won't look you in the eye
while you recreate me
however you want me to be
the perfect accessory
the perfect lie

Color Blind

can't see your blue, blue veins
raging with red, red blood
laced with white, white cocaine

can't see your green, green eyes
dilate with black, black thoughts
frantic for white, white highs

i was stupid to listen to anything you had to say
i couldn't see you were using me cuz i was born this way
color-blind

can't see your blue, blue eyes
racing with red, red blood
filling with white, white disdain

can't see your green, green eyes
loaded with black, black hate
desperate for white, white highs

i was stupid to listen to anything you had to say
i couldn't see you were using me cuz i was born this way
color-blind

seduction

you wanna know where i go when my eyes look like the sea
i'm caught in the ebb and flow where you cannot follow me

i used to be seduced by the lie- someone will understand
but the men only want your body
and the women just want your man

why should I turn the page when i can predict the end?
it's filling me with rage so why should I pretend?

i used to be seduced by the lie- someone will understand
but the men only want your body
and the women just want your man

he'll turn to me and say 'baby, it ain't what you think.'
i'll turn my head away and drown my heart in a drink

i used to be seduced by the lie- someone will understand
but the men only want your body
and the women just want your man

saving face

i rarely say what i mean
whisper the words in an empty room
with no one listening
scribble it down on a clean white page
but i'm not so pristine
i don't know what i am doing

i can't tell you what i think
without losing the words in a laugh and a drink
i can't tell you who i am
in the absence of the page and the pen
i can't tell you how i feel
like none of this matters and none of it is real

i break everything i touch
concentrate and my hands start to shake
i've been drinking too much
gives me the courage to lie to your face
so i can save mine
a humble offering to pride

i can't tell you what i think
without losing the words in a laugh and a drink
i can't tell you who i am
in the absence of the page and the pen
i can't tell you how i feel
like none of this matters and none of it is real

feather

sun doesn’t feel warm anymore
everything takes on a sinister hue
still i launch myself into the blue
used to shuffle but now i soar

i was in the air
i was in the air
i was in the air
and i didn’t need you there

go while you still have the chance
tuck a feather behind your ear
a trinket, a token, a souvenir
last glance and i start to dance

i was in the air
i was in the air
i was in the air
and i didn’t need you there

too many lovers in my bed

this morning i thought "oh my god, i'm taking the same steps,
the same breaths as yesterday."
wanted to crawl back in bed, tell the world to go to hell
but i kept walking anyway

this is not what i thought my life would be
a war between chaos and destiny
does chance sleep with fate? does fate lie with me?
too many lovers in my bed

so i run around- gain & lose the same ground with the same chance,
the same choice and no sign of change
distractions, transactions bought with the blood of my dreams
i'm told i don't want for anything

this is not what i thought my life would be
a war between chaos and destiny
does chance sleep with fate? does fate lie with me?
too many lovers in my bed

i have this dream where i stand still and
scream
in the street
for no reason.
does anything ever happen?

this is not what i thought my life would be
a war between chaos and destiny
does chance sleep with fate? does fate lie with me?
too many lovers in my bed

one night stand

the moon saw me home last night at 5 am
so close, i could almost see her surface bend
and she's a lot like me, a sliver of light everyone can see
shadow hinting at memory she cannot mend

one night stand, she sets and rises again
one night stand, drowning in the hourglass sand
turn it over, turn it over, turn it over
i want to start over

i walked several blocks out of my way
to stand under the flickering streetlamps
and he's got a lot of nerve, but maybe no more than i deserve
and i am happy walking home at 5am

one night stand, she sets and rises again
one night stand, drowning in the hourglass sand
turn it over, turn it over, turn it over, turn it over, turn it over, turn it over, turn it over
i want to start over

bar philosophy

let's just say what we mean
i'm sick of being polite
you're kinda young, you're sorta dumb
yeah, you're exactly my type

let's cut to the chase
you're only good for one thing
you're a fool, you're a tool
but i wouldn't mind a fling

if you can handle this
unspeakable bliss

now i've had my say
don't go wasting my time
cuz you're the drunk i plan to bunk with
so take me home-
before i change my mind

monterey

sunrise in monterey
sea lion dive and swim away
i'll remember how you look
hide your picture in the pages of my book

when i cry you cry too
and this is how i recognized you
this is how i knew

want to fall into the sea
and drown your troubles there with me?
now we can't go but we can't stay
to see the sunset in moterey

when i cry you cry too
and this is how i recognized you
this is how i knew

this is how i knew

snake

snake
shed my skin and leave it on the bed
that's the only part of me you can have
you're working out your desire and i'm working out my plan

when you least suspect i'll slip the coils around your neck
you can choke for all i care

snake
holding the venom in my mouth
waiting for the right moment to spit it out
you're consumed with yourself and i'm consumed with revenge

when you least suspect i'll slip the coils around your neck
you can choke for all i care

bullet

i watch at windows when you're gone
sun crawls across the limitless sky
clock-tick and heart-beat never seemed so long
silence is stalking me again tonight

killing me slow, killing me slow, killing me slow
give me the bullet, give me the bullet, a quick release and let me go

you think i'm a spider fed on your blood
weaving listless webs of winter white
to wrap you up in the trap of my love
a cruel cocoon to keep you from flight

killing me slow, killing me slow, killing me slow
give me the bullet, give me the bullet, a quick release and let me go

if you have any kindness left, let me go
if you have any mercy left, let me go

cowboy

the way i feel about him, no one understands
his wind-blown hair and sun-burned hands

at dusk my dusty cowboy went riding
into sunsets and out of hiding
and i'm ok, but i'll never feel this way
again

he played the hero to my damsel in distress
but rescue ain't a cure for this kind of loneliness

at dusk my dusty cowboy went riding
into sunsets and out of hiding
and i'm ok, but i'll never feel this way
again

a quick roll in the hay then he pulled on his boots and rode away
without saying goodnight, without waving goodbye, without saving my life
at dusk

at dusk, my dusty cowboy went riding
into sunsets and out of hiding
and i'm ok, but i'll never feel this way
again

pride between us

nail me firmly to the wall
one more butterfly in thrall
almost feel the pin sliding through my abdomen
a fine specimen of flesh for your collection

we'll always have pride between us

hold your hand out for the lash
lift your face for me to smash
what i can't have i have to kill, bend it over to my will
grind it down under a conqueror's bootheel

we'll always have pride between us

when it doesn't hurt it feels so good
ask whether you can, not if you should
love occupies the head but never sleeps in a sinner's bed

we'll always have pride between us

sleepwalker

i'm free, i'm free to think
if guns were pens, if bullets were ink
we'd fight, we'd fight our wars with words instead of blood

sleepwalker
i litter dreams in subway tunnels, in concrete streams
i can't see where these paths I travel are leading me

i'm free, i'm free to believe
if rhetoric was rhythm, if doctrine was melody
we'd fight, we'd fight our wars with songs instead of blood

sleepwalker
i litter dreams in subway tunnels, in concrete streams
i can't see where these paths I travel are leading me

leave a light on

flame, flame an october sky
rain, rain come to keep me dry
dead, dead leaves drift to the ground
like my heart, heart breaks without a sound

i see a light on but it's not on for me
your light's on, it's not on for me

flame, flame-lit cigarette tips
i'll blow, blow your name from my lips
smoke, smoke spinning black and blue
my heart, heart breaks at the thought of you

i see a light on but it's not on for me
your light's on, it's not on for me

now, now i am going home
to a light of my own
somebody leave a light on

i see a light on but it's not on for me
somebody leave a light on

ice queen (then, go)

you told me today you are going away- well then, go
you're going the same, with or without my approval
i know birds of summer can't survive the snow
and it's not half as cold as the shadow cast by my soul
well then- go

i'm like a puzzle, reassembled from memory
it's better to quit if you can't get the pieces to fit
i know birds of summer can't survive the snow
and it's not half as cold as the shadow cast by my soul
well then- go

i can't be touched, you talk too much and say nothing
mouth forming words i've already heard, i'm not listening
i know birds of summer can't survive the snow
and it's not half as cold as the shadow cast by my soul
well then- go