gonna take this breath, make it last forever
gonna take this afternoon and stretch it out longer
I wanna take it slow, one sweet endeavour
but it's never that simple. never that simple
gonna stop the clocks and keep back the evening
I ain't getting up. no, i'm never leaving
I'm gonna take it slow, one sweet endeavour
but it's never that simple, never that simple
I could fall for you against my better judgement
sink into you and never rise again
we could take it slow, one sweet endeavour
but it's never that simple
never that simple
10.28.2003
Never That Simple
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Tuesday, October 28, 2003
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We Survive
I can't stop you with a thing I say
doesn't matter, you'll do it anyway
like a martyr you run into the flame
saying, "oh my daughter, do not be ashamed."
We survive, we survive, we survive, we survive
3 generations under the same curse
bow your head and lift your skirt
nurse the wounds but keep them out of sight
full of anger without the will to fight
We survive, we survive, we survive, we survive
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Tuesday, October 28, 2003
Labels: We Survive
September
Painted on a coiled grey cell, the afternoon light of September
Blood that shatters with a smile even the bones will remember
A soul, so much the same
how is this possible?
wanderer, no cage could hold her
but she doesn't want to escape
she doesn't want to escape
Memorize dangerous eyes in the first cool rush of evening
Still some history in the air, words that don't need speaking
A soul, so much the same
how is this possible?
wanderer, no cage could hold her
but she doesn't want to escape
she doesn't want to escape
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Tuesday, October 28, 2003
Labels: September
Safer on the Ground
Looking for your father
Calling for your mother
Praying for your sister
What's lost can never be found
Splashing through puddles
Chasing after rainbows
Running into troubles
What's lost can never be found
When you've been stood up, when you've been let down
When you can't trust anyone, you're safer on the ground
Safer on the ground
Kneeling at an altar
Searching for a saviour
Desperate for an answer
What's lost can never be found
Choosing your addiction
Losing your religion
Just another victim
What's lost can never be found
When you've been stood up, when you've been let down
When you can't trust anyone, you're safer on the ground
Safer on the ground
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Tuesday, October 28, 2003
Labels: Safer on the Ground
Sharpening the Knives
I owe you a scratch or two
but I'm not keeping score
I just wanna know that I hurt you more
You can have your letters back
I know it ain't the cure
I just wanna know that I hurt you more
I could be the nicest girl you have ever seen
but even nice girls can be cruel, nice girls can turn mean
when defending our pride, when fighting for our lives
Send us to the kitchen and we'll be sharpening the knives
Don't lament me or torment me
if you're still unsure
I just wanna know that I hurt you
I just wanna know that I hurt you more
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Tuesday, October 28, 2003
Labels: Sharpening the Knives
Bitter Cup
lord, I've tasted all the sorrow I can stand to swallow
but you're still holding this bitter cup to my lips
I don't think I can drink another blessed drop
it tastes of death, despair, and loneliness
give me a little faith, a little faith to face another day
i need a little strength, a little strength to make it through tomorrow
lord, it seems somehow I'm right back where I started
don't wanna walk that dusty road alone
you said you'd carry me, carry me when I can't go on
I need you to come now and carry me home
or give me a little faith, a little faith to face another day
I need a little strength, a little strength to make it through tomorrow
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Tuesday, October 28, 2003
Labels: Bitter Cup
Don't Remember Me
I am the withering flower that's lost its bloom
I always fade faster when you're in the room
If I could take just one precious thing from you
I'd take the memories you're no longer entitled to
I don't want you to remember me
not my laughter, not my kisses,
not my body, not my secrets
just forget it, please, please
I am the withering flower crushed underfoot
A slight bit of sweet scent without any root
Full of regret for what i've let myself become
A pale little posey, scared to stretch out for the sun
I don't want you to remember me
not my laughter, not my kisses,
not my body, not my secrets
just forget it, please, please
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Tuesday, October 28, 2003
Labels: Don't Remember Me
9.23.2003
Already In Me
Gotta learn to be led by my head instead of my heart
'cuz where she falls I always go tumbling after
Pick my aching body up, brush off the dust
and vow this is the last time I let myself trust her
You're already in me, already looking for another love
You're already in me, already looking for another love
And I'm vanishing in your arms while your eyes are busy searching for the door
but you're already in me
I lay awake with my cheek resting on your chest
and listen to the rhythm of your blood and your breath
Then you turn away in your sleep, you turn your back on me
two bodies joined and separated by loneliness
You're already in me, already looking for another love
You're already in me, already looking for another love
And I'm vanishing in your arms while your eyes are busy searching for the door
but you're already in me
Everything in me wants to tell you, "Don't leave."
Everything in me wants to say, "Please stay with me."
"Don't leave. Please stay with me."
You're already in me, already looking for another love
You're already in me, already looking for another love
And I'm vanishing in your arms while your eyes are busy searching for the door
but you're already in me
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Tuesday, September 23, 2003
Labels: Already In Me
7.17.2003
Come Home
I got lost in the candle flame
thought I heard you calling my name
so I let my soul float up to the rafters
chasing the echoes of your laughter
when will you come home?
Brooklyn skies are baby blue
boy I'm lonely, lonely for you
the window is cold but my hands burn
wait for the stranger to return
when will you come home?
weary of running my own defense
pull me under you and it all makes sense
when will you come home?
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Thursday, July 17, 2003
Labels: Come Home
7.30.2001
The Taste of Blood
Maybe you only want what you can only get
Certainly don't want love cuz it puts you in my debt
Did I ask you to love me, did I place any demands?
Doesn't make sense to my heart, but my head understands
You hate hearing me say that we all want to get hurt
If it makes you feel better, you can hide behind my skirt
I'll be in the corner licking salt from a paper cut
but don't worry, it's okay, I'm used to the taste of blood
I'm used to the taste of blood
Maybe you'll run and put your head under the sand
or laugh it off, purposefully misunderstand
I'm still confused, I thought that what we had was good
Tell me what's so frightening, what's wrong with being loved?
You hate hearing me say that we all want to get hurt
If it makes you feel better, you can hide under my skirt
I'll be in the corner licking salt from a paper cut
but don't worry, it's okay, I'm used to the taste of blood
I'm used to the taste of blood
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Monday, July 30, 2001
Labels: Taste of Blood, The Taste of Blood
10.28.2000
Juliet
your ghost walked up, said hello
i saw right through you, down to your soul
how we got here, i don't know
i never meant to let it go so far
hand in hand, yours is cold
there's no warmth in you, only ice & snow
how we got here, i don't know
i never meant to let it go so far
thought i was your juliet, you were my romeo
how did that story end? oh, i remember, oh
i never meant to let it go so far
you're an illusion, you are a snare
your eyes are prison bars, hold me if you dare
how we got here, i don't know
i never meant to let it go so far
thought i was your juliet, you were my romeo
how did that story end? oh, i remember, oh
i never meant to let it go so far
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Saturday, October 28, 2000
Labels: Juliet
Outstrip Fate
i've been to the mountain, i've been to the sea
the earth won't share her secret with me
the wind told me to send my soul floating free
but i'm still anchored securely, lost & lonely
i want to run away,
but would my feet be fleet enough to outstrip my fate
i've been wounded & i'm bleeding pride
a little girl with trusting arms stretched wide
to catch a love that cheated, stole, abondoned, & lied
no time to mourn, just another thorn-pierced side
i want to run away
but would my feet be fleet enough to outstrip my fate
good intentions & kindly meant advice
everyone thinks they know how to fix my life
ignore the heartache, smile & play nice
but don't ask why, don't ever ask why
i want to run away, but would my feet be fleet enough to outstrip my fate
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Saturday, October 28, 2000
Labels: Outstrip Fate
Nothing to Kill
cut yourself on my sharp edges?
can this be the first time that you've bled?
i've lost so much i'm all dried up
now i can't cry so i laugh instead
bruised yourself on my hard corners?
is this the first time you've had to heal?
i've fallen so much, my bones are splintered
probing for pain that i can't feel
when there's nothing to feel, nothing to kill, nothing to heal
it's all over
poisoned yourself on my bitter dregs?
it won't be the last time you'll taste this brew
i've drunk so much, it's in my veins now
and one day it will run through you
drown yourself in my cool water
'cuz this is the last time you'll leave the shore
i've sunk so much, i can't remember rising
another wreck lying on the floor
when there's nothing to feel, nothing to kill, nothing to heal
it's all over
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Saturday, October 28, 2000
Labels: Nothing to Kill
Happy Baby
you wanna make me happy, baby?
it's easy to make me happy, baby
cuz i get so happy whenever you go
you wanna make me smile, baby?
it's easy to make me smile, baby
you'll see me smile when you leave me alone
i'll do whatever it takes
you made the bid, but i'll raise the stakes
i'll make you happy, baby
just you wait & see
you wanna hear me laughing, baby?
it's easy to hear me laughing, baby
cuz i'm always laughing when you turn your back
you wanna hear me singing, baby?
it's easy to hear me singing, baby
i'm singing now about the love you lack
i'll do whatever it takes
you made the bid, but i'll raise the stakes
i'll make you happy, baby
just you wait & see
better pretend, better defend myself with a wall
so no one can crawl inside & see how weak, how weak i really am
i'll do whatever it takes
you made the bid, but i'll raise the stakes
i'll make you happy, baby
just you wait & see
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Saturday, October 28, 2000
Labels: Happy Baby
9.23.2000
Already Too Late
Silence is full of things unsaid
I cannot breathe deep enough to get you out of my head
The moon's light is thick upon our eyes
Summoning an enchantment that separates the truth from the lives
You've seen too much
Do you realize, you've seen too much?
You've seen too much
It's already too late for me to leave without regret
but you can escape if you haven't been captured yet
It's already too late for me to stop my fall
but if you escape I wouldn't blame you at all
I wouldn't blame you
I wouldn't blame you
Secrets come spilling from within
Do you think you can unravel the tangle beneath my skin
But what you discover inside
May only disappoint you and I feel compelled to hide
You've seen too much
Do you realize, you've seen too much?
You've seen too much
It's already too late for me to leave without regret
but you can escape if you haven't been captured yet
It's already too late for me to stop my fall
but if you escape I wouldn't blame you at all
I wouldn't blame you
I wouldn't blame you
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Saturday, September 23, 2000
Labels: Already Too Late
1.28.2000
Love Will Come
love will come & i may be more than a little unprepared
but it will come even if i'm sullen, stung, & scared
he won't preach to me about the difference between right & wrong
he'll just take my hand, hold me close, & lead me on
love will come
love will come & it will never, never leave again
love will come & it won't diminsh the beauty of my soul
it will come & return the innocence a stranger once stole
he won't tell me who he thinks i am or who he wants me to become
he'll just take my hand, hold me close, & whisper "well done."
love will come
love will come & it will never, never leave
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Friday, January 28, 2000
Labels: Love Will Come
9.23.1999
Chasing After the Wind
Nothing but bones where a home used to lay
A picture on the front steps is all I've got left
When the echo of our footsteps has faded away
If I go chasing after the wind, to find there's nothing new under the sun
Remind this aching heart of mine that everything is made beautiful in time
Nothing but bones where a home used to breathe
I'm seeing things, ghosts wandering
In the wreckage their unfulfilled dreams
If I go chasing after the wind, to find there's nothing new under the sun
Remind this aching heart of mine that everything is made beautiful in time
I'll put on my best dress and dance all night
I'll put on my best dress and dance all night
I'll put on my best dress and dance all night
Laughter drives away the sorrow
and blindness heals the sight
Blindness heals the sight
If I go chasing after the wind, to find there's nothing new under the sun
Remind this aching heart of mine that everything is made beautiful in time
Everything is made beautiful in time
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Thursday, September 23, 1999
Labels: Chasing After the Wind
9.22.1999
Tumble Down
If I run out in the rain, close my eyes to everything
Open my mouth to catch the drops, to sear my throat with fire
Will you think it's strange?
It's salt upon my tongue, a racing flame within my veins
I tumble down to the earth, I tumble down in the mud
Do you think it's strange?
I didn't ever really want you to understand anything
I didn't ever really want you to understand anything
I didn't ever really want you to understand anything
Do you blame me? I am the one to blame?
I live on insubstantial dreams, a feast of sugar-plum schemes
Santa stuffed my stocking full of poetry and stars and coal
Do you think it's strange
I didn't ever really want you to understand anything
I didn't ever really want you to understand anything
I didn't ever really want you to understand anything
Do you blame me? I am the one to blame?
I tumble down to the earth, I tumble down in the mud
Do you think it's strange?
Spin in circles till we fall, till it all comes crashing down
Do you think it's strange?
I didn't ever really want you to understand anything
I didn't ever really want you to understand anything
I didn't ever really want you to understand anything
Do you blame me? I am the one to blame?
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Wednesday, September 22, 1999
Labels: Tumble Down
9.20.1999
Can It Be Forgiven
There's always a reason, some kind of excuse
For what I've become and what I've been
You see who I should be, you see who I am
How the sacred and the sin
Get tangled up in knots beneath my skin
The selfishness inside me, can it be forgiven?
The jealousy inside me, can it be forgiven?
The bitterness inside me, can it be forgiven?
The anger inside me, can it be forgiven?
Can it be forgiven?
I wanted to say this isn't my fault
To find someone or something to blame
Then you took my face into your lovely hands
My guilt touched by innocence
and we both came away unstained
The selfishness inside me, can it be forgiven?
The jealousy inside me, can it be forgiven?
The bitterness inside me, can it be forgiven?
The anger inside me, can it be forgiven?
Can it be forgiven?
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Monday, September 20, 1999
Labels: Can It Be Forgiven
8.23.1999
What You Do
You saw me when I made myself invisible
You heard me though I didn't raise my voice
You knew me when I hid my heart from you
and I thought no one knew
Do you ever realize what it is you do to me?
You loved me when I refused to change
You touched me even when I was afraid
You held me with the smile in your eyes
and I thought no one knew
Do you ever realize what it is you do to me?
Do you ever realize what it is you do to me?
Do you ever realize what it is you do to me?
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Monday, August 23, 1999
Labels: What You Do